I Lost my Brother in a car Accident/ Full of Regrets
by V LS
I loved my big brother. We didn't always agree but I miss the arguments. He was taken away from us in Sept. 2006 while on his way to work, when a teenager fell asleep at the wheel veered over across the highway in his lane and hit him head on ejecting him from his car and throwing him on a highway in AZ.
We'd lost our father in '01 and hadn't spoken since.
I miss him and have regrets that I didn't reach out to him and mend our relationship. There was a lot of pain and anger in me about our father dying and him not being there but, I thought he would come around and apologize.
I expected that after all, he was the eldest. I now feel sadness because of all the 5 yrs I wasted waiting when I could have called him. It was all so sudden and I became enraged about the accident. Why he too, had to leave. So much left unsaid, undone. No more fun times between us or jokes played on me. My daughter lost her uncle whom she loved dearly.
Time is so precious and our family is so important. I have no one now and it hurts. I miss you John and wish that I had one more time to say I love you and forgive you. We'll be all right. Loving you always Chibbie's Mom.