I lost my Dad 30 years ago when I was 8 and struggling a bit
I lost my Dad on 12th November 1982 when I was 8. He died of a brain haemorrhage aged 47.
It's coming up to 30 years now and I'm struggling a little at the moment. I don't tend to get that upset anymore. However, on each birthday/anniversary I do. Coming up to 30 years seems to be even worse for some reason. I'm approaching 40 myself in a couple of months. I have 2 young children and start to doubt my ability as a father myself. I know that's silly as both are happy.
I think I struggle a bit as my family don't tend to speak about memories of my Dad that much at all and I'm the sort of person who likes to speak about him. Given I was 8 when he passed away, I don't have that many memories, apart from special occasions (holidays, Christmas, going to football etc).
My brother and sister are both 9-10 years older than me and they along with my Mum were a great support.
He was a great Dad though and I miss him so much.