I lost my dad a little over a year ago.
(Baton Rouge LA)
I want to start off by saying my dad was my biggest fan. I was daddy's little girl. He wasn't just my dad he was my best friend. I was 6 months pregnant with my little girl when he died. I had flown across the country because he was in the hospital. When I arrived, I was told by the drs there was nothing else they could do and I had him transferred to hospice and signed the dnr paperwork like he wanted. He passed away two days later. I never had time to deal with any of the pain and grief over losing him. I had to prepare our new house that my husband and I had just gotten for our little girl, and shortly after our baby was born. To add insult to injury I lost my grandfather 7 months after my dad passed away. Now its been a little over a year later and I have realized that my grief has affected more than I thought. To the point its killing my marriage Im not the happy carefree person I used to be. My husband and I have been at each others throats becuase of it. He sat down tonight and told me I miss my wife I miss who you used to be. How do I go back to who I was and deal with the loss of my dad? I realized tonight Im the the person I was last year and i miss her. I just feel so lost. And I dont want my marriage to end just because I cant seem to move on.