I lost my Dad on 03/12/13
Where to begin In November of 2011 my dad was told that he had lung cancer. He quit smoking that day cold turkey. My Mom and dad both said okay we will beat this. He does chemo and radation. Then Feburary 2012 its in his throat and it kills his vocal cords. He can hardly talk at all. Starts chemo and radition again. then he went in to kidney failure. They let us take him home to die my parents were both in denial but i called his cancer doctor and she gave him 2weeks to a month. He lasted not even a full week. I flew my sister home so she could be here for when he passed. She got to spend about two weeks before he was gone. On the night of March 11th I had to work the over night shift at work so my mom called me at about 130am to tall me his nreathing is really bad and she had to call the hospice nurse to come to help him. I told her to call me back. I should have listened to my heart it was telling me to leave work and go to him. I didnt I got off work at 7am. My sister came in to my work at 650am said mom just called she thinks dad is gone. I rush out of work and to the home of my parents walk in and my dads gone. I scream Daddy No. My dad has been my hero my whole life what I dont understand is how am I supposed to go on when my whole world is turned upside down. Everyone telling me hes not suffering but we are suffering without him my mother never left his side they had the kinda love that is rare this day in age. he was such a fighter he fought till that morning when he sat up and wisphered good morning to my mom took two last breaths and he was gone.I go between disbeilf to anger. I dont know how to go on with out him. I had to return to work on Saturday 03/16/13 and it takes everything I have to get out of bed. It hurts to watch everyone go about their life like nothing happened but it did happen my world crashed.