I lost my Dad on 23rd April 2009.
I lost my Dad on 23rd April 2009. Yes, this was nearly 4 years ago now, but i still feel the pain every day, 2009 was supposed to be the best year for me. I got my dream job in the police of which Dad was really proud of me. But 3 months into my training and my Dad died all of a sudden. No warning and no chance to say goodbye. He was there one minute and gone the next. There was nothing anyone could do, you were just gone. Since then I have tried to carry on, I put on a brave face, but the truth is that I am lost now that you're gone. you were the one I looked to for advice and support, I know that I am old enough to face things on my own, but the truth is that I don't want to. I want your honest advice, even if it wasn't what I wanted to hear all of the time, but your judgement was spot on. You were my world and I think of you everyday. I am jealous of my brother because he has 2 children who have met "grumpy" but my children will never meet you. All I can do is show them pictures and tell them stories of you. Missing you is so hard, and knowing that you won't meet the man I marry or have a part in my children's life is so hard to deal with. But you were there for me, and I will do my best to pass on your legacy. I love you. You're the best xx