I lost my dad on feb 2nd 2011

by Desiree
(Salem Oregon)

I lost my dad to cancer on Feb-2-2011 I was his caregiver and me and my family had no idea he had it. I started caregiving for him in sep 2010 and I was working on getting him a new doctor cause the one he had before wasn't doing anything for him. Well I finally got him a doctor who was doing something for him and by that time it was to late. I took him a his doctors appointment and they told me to take him to the emergency room because his blood pressure was to low and they could not find a pulse on him. Well I stayed with him for 10 hours until they got him a room. The next day he called me and said they found something on his liver. I didn't think anything of it because cancer didn't run on his side of the family at all. Before they got the results in he called me and told me it was cancer. I cried and cried, until I found out they didn't have the results yet. But he knew he had it a couple days went by and sure enough he had it. I went and talk to his cancer doctor and he said he only had 2 to 3 months to live. Oh I cried so hard I had no idea he had it, he was released out of the hospital on sunday and Wednesday he passed away so not even 2 to 3 months. I was so sad I miss him so much. He was a great man. I miss his hugs and kisses I miss taking care of him. I feel guilty because my kids didn't know him very well. I wish I could of done so much with him before he suddenly left. He hasn't visited me in my dreams and it hurts. I wish I could of had more time with him but I don't anytime would of been enough, I would still want more. I love you so much daddy love your little girl Desiree Ps. Rip