I lost my dad to cancer
My dad got diagnosed with stomach cancer last year and he died a few days ago. I think he died a terrible death. Throughout that year he wasn't "my dad." He was always on pain medication and didn't want to talk to me. I lost my mom too in a way. She dedicated her life to helping him. Now that my dad is gone I don't feel like I have my mom back. I'm still in high school. What am I supposed to do. I feel alone. When my dad was alive I was alone but I still had those moments where my dad held my hand and I thought that everything was going to be okay. Why do I feel so empty? If I feel empty I can't imagine what my little sister is feeling. How can I help my mom? Can I even help her when I feel like if I'm crying on the inside? i just want my dad to hug me and tell me that he loves me. Is that so much to ask for? Does life ever get better?