i lost my dad

my dad went in for a straight forward operation and that was they last time we heard his voice as the operation went all wrong his body went into shock and had to be put on a life support machine. we thought he would make it and come home but after 12 days in icu we had to let him go and turn the machine off. hes gone 3 months it only feels like yesterday and i still cant believe hes gone. christmas was so hard and people almost expect you to be okay after three months but these are people who have not lost a parent who do not understand. i just feel like a zombie all the time and numb and just not interested in anything really.
i miss my dad so much its not till there gone that you realise how close you are to them and how a big chunk is taken out of your life and your life will never be the same.