I lost my grandson 1 week ago today

by Ann
(Brook, In)

It hurts like hell, my grandson Landon was 2yrs11months old. His dad (my son) took him to the ER because he has asthma and his dad thought he was having an attack, they did test and he had pneumonia but, they sent him home. Six hours later Landon's mom takes him back to ER because he is not breathing right he now test positive for strept and they send him home again. Why did they not keep him or send him out? I now find out that they were at full census but still why did they fail my grandson? He died 5 hours later of cardiac arrest complicated by pneumonia. I'm so lost, I have to be strong for my son but, how can I when I can't be strong for myself? Landon leaves his aunts (my daughters) who are 6yrs and 15yrs old. my six year old talks to him like he is still here, she asked me "why can't god fix him and send him back to us?" how do I answer that? The coroner turned the case over to the sheriff but, I want to know why more wasn't done, was it because he was on medicaid, was it because the dr's didn't care?
All I can see is his red hair and big blue eyes, he is everywhere I look.
I would never wish this pain on anyone, was he punished because of something I did?
I googled "what if I commit suicide to be with my grandson" and got no answers. I would never do it but, if there was a chance I could go to him so he would not be scared, I would.
He called me Momma or Anne

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Oct 31, 2013
I am crying with you
by: Anonymous

My heart is crying and grieving with you my grandson died before he was born full term baby he died because the staff did not monitor my daughter and the baby .I feeling the same nothing but nothing can take this awful pain away I hope and pray that you and your family will be okay.

Oct 30, 2013
think I know how you feeling
by: anne-marie

The only thing that will help you in this time is crying and I know nothing but nothing and nobody can make it better .I been send out was not aloud to stay with my daughter during labor time the hosp staff did not do their work and did not monitoring her well a healthy pregnantsy ended in one of my worst days now 3 months my grandson been born dead I wish I can just give you a hug I am so sorry .please talk to every body people about your grandson it won't take the pain and missing him away but it help .thinking and will pray that God will help you and your family.

Jan 03, 2013
my Grandson
by: Anonymous

I am at home my grandson who will be 3 years old in Jan is in hospital with pneumonia i am so worried for him

Jan 17, 2012
I lost my grandson 1 week ago today reply
by: Anonymous

Thank you Jane, it was a senseless death if the hospital had just shipped him out or admitted him he may still be here today. I try to be strong for my family but, it's killing me. I don't want to leave the house because I think people are staring at me. I know it's mean but, I wonder why my grandson and not my neighbors and i would never wish this on anyone.
once again thank you, I know I'm not thinking straight right now and just rambling.

Jan 16, 2012
so sorry.
by: Jane

I am so sorry for your loss, this is something unforgiveable by the hospital, so many times over and over again the health system fails our loved ones, this is what makes it so hard to except, I don't know what to say to you to make you feel better because there is no words that will do that, At this time there is nothing to make sense of this terrible loss. I understand the suicide feelings its just a way of making it go away, I guess the only thing you can do is stay strong for your family, I know its hard but they need your strength at this time, the truth is there is nothing anyone can say or do to make sense of this at this time so if you a religious, pray for some answers I found when I lost my mother, reading grief pages and books did help the pain a little, but you never ever forget them and the pain really never goes away. completely. I am just so sorry for your loss.

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