I lost my grandson 1 week ago today
It hurts like hell, my grandson Landon was 2yrs11months old. His dad (my son) took him to the ER because he has asthma and his dad thought he was having an attack, they did test and he had pneumonia but, they sent him home. Six hours later Landon's mom takes him back to ER because he is not breathing right he now test positive for strept and they send him home again. Why did they not keep him or send him out? I now find out that they were at full census but still why did they fail my grandson? He died 5 hours later of cardiac arrest complicated by pneumonia. I'm so lost, I have to be strong for my son but, how can I when I can't be strong for myself? Landon leaves his aunts (my daughters) who are 6yrs and 15yrs old. my six year old talks to him like he is still here, she asked me "why can't god fix him and send him back to us?" how do I answer that? The coroner turned the case over to the sheriff but, I want to know why more wasn't done, was it because he was on medicaid, was it because the dr's didn't care?
All I can see is his red hair and big blue eyes, he is everywhere I look.
I would never wish this pain on anyone, was he punished because of something I did?
I googled "what if I commit suicide to be with my grandson" and got no answers. I would never do it but, if there was a chance I could go to him so he would not be scared, I would.
He called me Momma or Anne