I lost my husband Jan 8th 2012

by Joyce Deckrosh
(Coshocton Ohio)

I lost my husband Tad on jan 8th 2012 of lung cancer he was only 44 years old. I am trying to cope with Tads death, but it is very hard to do things alone We were together for 11 years . Everyone tells me it will get easier but i dont know. I get very lonesome, there are times i dont even what to come home to a empty house.I fine things to do, I am starting STNA classes in march that will help some.There are times that i wish that it had been me who passed.I talk to Tad alot that might sound odd but i do that alot, that seems to help Joyce Deckrosh

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Mar 25, 2012
My thought's and prayers are with you and your family..
by: MaryanneKinsey

I am very sorry for your loss I know how you are feeling I lost my husband January 6th 2012 and It was very hard I also sleep with his pillow and a teddy and two shirts and his favourite blanket. I talk to him all the time... I just want you to know that I am thinking and praying for you and your family.... I'm not going to say that it is going to be ok and that it gets easier because I am still trying to find that out for myself:( sorry..

Mar 22, 2012
So Sad
by: So Sad

Both of you lost your husbands this year. I lost my husband March 18. The funeral is day after tomorrow. How can I do this? I know that people will comfort me but then we must bury his body 5 days later.
I can't bear this. How many more tears can I cry? What makes this more difficult for me is that I am surrounded by three children that are just as depressed and a mother that is just as sad as me.
We all look at each other in horror.
This is death. Right now, it is a LITTLE comfort to know he is in heaven but, seriously, I asked God to raise him from the dead like He did Lazarus.
I know everyone here would like Him to do that. We can't live forever. and this life isn't all it's cracked up to be. Life comes at you fast. This isn't what I bargained for. Help me, Jesus!

Mar 19, 2012
Loss of husband
by: Pat J.

Dear Joyce,
I lost my husband June 27,2011, the day after our 46th wedding anniversary. He had a massive heart attack sitting on the side of our bed at 12:10 a.m. He had been in the hospital, we were told he had lung and heart issues, was put on oxygen 24/7,but the week before he died, myself and our 5 adult children met with his doctor discussing our concerns and asked if he was dying. We were told he was not dying; boy was he wrong. He came home from the hospital on the 25th of June and on the 27th he died.
Our lives are forever changed. What was once we, now becomes me. I hear things will get better, things will get easier. I don't think that is true. I feel we just get stronger. We just learn to go on without our loved ones. I think we all feel a part of us died with our spouse. How can we not feel that way, when we were together always doing things with each other and now they are gone.
I joined a grief support group through our church and met three other widows. We do things together,my children tell me their dad and I were never gone so much. That statement is true. We were home bodies. We were together and that's what we got married for, to do things and spend time together. I would trade my busy life, just to have my husband here with me again. I miss his voice, his touch; I just miss everything about him. Just writing that brings tears to my eyes. I want my old life back we all do, but that isn't going to happen. We have to make a new life for ourselves and it is a new life.
We have to have faith. My faith in God, that he is always with me. There is that poem of footprints in the sand. I believe there are alot of single footprints in my life with God carrying me.
Be patient with yourself. There isn't a time limit on our grief. It will be 36 years in June I lost my mom and 6 years in April, that I lost my dad. I still get tears in my eyes and an ache in my heart for them. I have this ache in my heart for my husband. The ache and wrenching pain, has lessened, but I will always have this ache in my heart for him. I don't think that ache ever goes away.
All we can do is take it one day at a time; sometimes just minutes at a time. I often say, I am faking it until I can make it. One day I will really be making it without faking it.

Mar 18, 2012
i lost my husband jan, 8
by: Anonymous

I know how you feel,I lost the love of my life and best friend my Husband on 2/23/2012.
I also talk to my Husband everyday,and sleep and kiss his pillow good night,I go to his resting place everyday and talk to him,I miss him so much ,my heart aches so bad for him,I buried my heart with him that day,We was married almost 30 years,I was 17 when we met he was 29,It was love at first site,we dated for 3 weeks and got married,been together ever since,my husband had Pulmonary Fibrosis,COPD,GHF,Diabetes ,We have 2 grown children and 6 Grandchildren,I get sad when I hugs the grandbabies,because i feel guilty because he can't be with them anymore, Denice

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