I lost my lovely Aly to heroin and prescription drugs.. I miss her so much..
So I am here online writing about, "My story!" Where the heck do I start?? My daughter Aly at 22 died of an overdose of heroin October 4, 2013. The night she died is fuzzy to me because I could not understand why the paramedics could not bring her back that night. Her sister and I spent over 20 mins giving her cpr before they came and when they told me there was nothing they could do I sort of blanked out.
Aly had been struggling with heroin and prescription drugs for the past few years. She had a baby girl and my best friend and I had taken the baby away because she could not stay clean and do the right thing. At this time I never realized it was heroin and blamed it on prescription drugs but it is all the same. Tina (my best friend) and I took turns with the baby and I would always take Aly to eat and let her see her baby. I told her when she straightened up she could have her back. Aly was just a baby to me at 21. I remember the guilt I felt when I would pick her up at some hotel they paid for by the week and cried when I had to drop her back off but I wanted her to want to help herself. She got busted for prescription drugs and went to jail for 7 months. I did not get her an attorney and did not bail her out of jail. I figured if she was in jail I knew she was safe and could actually sleep at night. Aly had been in the hospital numerous times for almost od'ing and I had sent her to rehab 3 times. I swore I would never take her back after jail but she was my daughter and I loved her and I took her in, in a heartbeat. I treated her like a teenager with a curfew etc and she was doing really good. I thought after 7 months the habit was kicked. I got her odd jobs and she was so pleasant to be around. She had her own room but would end up in my bed with me and would tell me how much she loved me. Than it all ended October 4th. I can remember coming home that night from work and she was so excited because I bought her a pack of cigarettes which I never did but told her they were on sale. I told her I loved her and she told me she loved me more. The next thing I know is I am doing cpr within the next two hours. She was in such a good mood what made her shoot up I have no clue. Whatever she took it was fast, I still carry her phone with me and she text someone for some xanax and they were out out so they brought her some "killer H" is how he put it. Killer it was. She was texting at 1:13am and pronounced dead at 2:20am.
I miss her, I miss her so much and so does her two sisters and brother. We are still having a hard time dealing with it. I just wish I could be in a Nicolas Sparks book where your loved one who dies contacts you and tells you they are ok and in a better place.
Aly bug I will always love you with all the love I have!!
(maugh) which in our terms means kisses..
Thank you all for being here and listening..