I Lost my Mom this year March 28th 2012

by Linda wash
(Houston Texas)

My name is Linda ,I miss my mom so very much,my heart just aches to hug her and tell her I love her once more!! My dad is 89 and lives next door and now I worry about him.I am a christian,and I pray that I will have the strength to get through this. I cry just about every single day.I am married and I have two children and three grandchildren.My mom had a massive heart attack and pneumonia,then after nearly three months her kidneys failed.Her heart was only working 30% all during that time.They told me she was dieing and was suffering,I had to give permission to take her off everything.That was by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.Every thing happened so fast.

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Jun 15, 2012
I'm also sharing your pain
by: Linda

Dear Munmun,

I am so sorry for the loss your mom.When I first lost my mom,I think I was in total shock, like walking in a daze for awhile,even though I new she didn't have long to live.I took care of both my parents, my dad is 89.Going through all of this and being single would be so hard for me also.I hope you have some friends you can talk to and share your feelings with or family.I have to cry sometimes, if i keep all that inside me i will get sick from the stress of it all.I'm getting a little better.It takes a long time if ever to get over loosing a parent.I am a Christian,and I read( The Holy Bible)and pray to my God,and He gets me through it all. You can talk to me any time Munmun.

Jun 14, 2012
I share your pain
by: Munmun

Dear Linda,
I'm from India (Orissa to be exact) and I lost my mom a few days back on the 18th of May 2012. I nearly went blank for 2-3 days. Being a single perosn makes things even more difficult for me. For once in my life, I felt like I was living in a surreal world, where I could hear her whisper back to me if I talked to her.
I'm trying my best to get back to a normal life, an uphill task indeed, but reading the Bhagawat Gita(the holy book of the Hindus) has helped me a lot. I also read about the bardo states in Buddhism once which Im re-reading now.
I know that I too shall cease to exist as she is today and its just a matter of time. Till then I dont want her soul to be pained by my tears.
I know I have to hold on.
I can understand your pain.

Jun 12, 2012
Loss of my Mother
by: Linda

Hello Anonymous,
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your Mother.I am the oldest of two children, I have one brother he is eleven years younger than me.I also feel lost with out my mother.I cry at least once every day,and that's okay it is part of the grieving process.I try to be strong for my family also.Sometimes with my husband I will break down completely and afterwards I feel better,don't try and keep it inside all the time,it will make you sick.My dad is still alive he is 89 and lives next door to us.He and my mom had an Anniversary last month they would have been married 66 years.I wish I could have been there with my mom when she passed.May God comfort your heart and help you to find peace.

Jun 12, 2012
by: Linda

Hi Doreen,
I am so sorry for the loss of your husband.I know nothing in my life will ever be the same again.I will never be able to talk to her again except in silence.My heart has a huge missing part that is gone.She had her heart attack on Dec.30th 2011.My dad had just had a heart attack in October 2011 and they had to shock him back to life,100% blocked like my mom,but in a different area of the heart.Hers was in the main artery.My dad recovered very well and I am so thankful for that.I wish I could have been there with my mom when she passed.I am still going through the grieving part and so is my dad,they were married 66 years on May 5th and her birthday was May 6th,then Mothers Day May 13th.I am really glad that May is over.

Jun 11, 2012
Loss of my mother
by: Doreen England U.K.

Hi Linda
I am sorry for the loss of your mother. It hurts doesn't it when you lose someone so significant in your life. We will never get over our loss. Life just changes so dramatically that we are thrown into chaos.
Grief is so very painfull. Often it feels as if Life has stopped and we don't want it to restart for us. This is the numbness we feel initially when someone dies.
March 28th this date only year 2009 was the worst day of our lives when my husband Steve was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer caused by working with Asbestos the disease is called MESOTHELIOMA. It is a deadly cancer and incurable and inoperable. I nursed Steve for 3 years and 39 days and he died on May th 2012 and I buried him on 25th May 2012. It is a long and hard road. Whether a person is a Christian or not the grief is hard and difficult to bear.

Jun 11, 2012
Loss of a mother
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry for your loss. I too lost my mother ,my best friend in May. I know the pain you are experiencing. I am the youngest of my siblings. I feel I was the closest to my mom. She passed away from complications after surgery for pancreatic cancer. I feel so lost without her. I also am married with two children. Everyone tells me how strong I am, but I am not. I cry when I'm alone. I'm afraid to cry in front of my family because I know they too are grieving. What comforts me is to think of how lucky I am to have had loving parents who were caring and giving people. My mom was able to see me graduate from nursing school, and to see my children. My dad passed away 15 years ago. The last few days we had together haunt me. We also had to take her off the breathing tube and let her go. I held her in my arms with my siblings around us. I can tell you time heals the pain. But I will miss them for the rest of my life. Good luck to you and your family.

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