I lost my son and best friend.
I lost my son on June 11,2011. I can't even begin to put into words the pain that does not seem to ease up. I still can't believe it. I wake up everyday and it's like a punch in the stomach, because it dawns on me that this is another day without my boy. He was 24 yrs. old. I have been on FMLA from my job but it is now becoming quite obvious that I may have to go on LTD. Every bone in my body hurts and I cry constantly. I have a beautiful daughter who lives independantly, has a boyfriend and works full time and is getting her degree. I love her dearly however she is very busy with her own life. I spent so much time with my son, we ate dinner together all the time as he loved my cooking.We laughed and watched movies together. He even went food shopping with me to pick out the ingredients for the meal we would eat. We talked about what went on at our jobs that day and he loved to read and would tell me about his latest book he was into. I really do not like living with this pain. But who does? I try to go to a support group near me but usually i am too tired to go as it is in the evening. I have become practically a recluse. I really do not want to be around others. How does a mother go on? I pray and beg God for strength each day. God help all of us who have lost children.