I lost my Soul Mate
I lost my soul mate of 25 years suddenly to a massive heart attack. Everyday I struggle with the loss and the thought of never being with him. We worked together since we met and started our own business before we got married. He was the kindest, funniest and most interesting man I had ever met. I was 23 and he was 30 and after we met we were together ever since. He had so many women that wanted him but for some reason he wanted me and I could hardly believe it. I knew he was the one when he put his arm around me - I felt like I was finally home. We had trouble conceiving our first child and after 13 years of marriage and giving up we were suddenly pregnant. Today she is 10 years old and she misses her special Daddy. He died on Oct 2nd and its Nov 23rd and we are still crying hard all the time. I don't know how I will get over this loss. The day of the funeral I already had a guy interested in me and he has come back and asked me when I would be ready? Very funny. I told him I didn't know because I was still in love with my husband and wasn't sure when that day would come. He said he was sorry to hear that. He's a nice guy but I am just not ready of course. I am going to take it one day at a time and do the best I can and be the best parent I can be. I am so thankful for the support and love of my family, neighbors and friends. I feel so blessed. I started going to church again which is really helping. To all of you out there I wish you the best and I feel so bad for those who lost loved ones - I have never felt worse in my life. I received an anti depressant and anti anxiety drugs from my doctor that
at least are keeping me sane and healthy. These were drugs that were really needed. After 1 year she plans on weaning me off both of them. I have heard not to make any big decisions until 1 year after the death of your partner - it normally takes that long to really be thinking clearly.