I lost My Twin Sister

by beth tate
(tampa florida)

I am lost. My twin sister passed away 2 days ago. She had been struggling with gastroparesis which led to many other health related problems. Though she was in pain so much of the time she still hung on to hope. I called her everyday and if she was sleeping she would always call me back. She didn't call me back Saturday night so I panicked and went to her home only to find her lifeless on her bead. I will never be able to get that image out of my head for as long as I live. Screaming, crying, holding on to her I begged god to tell me it wasn't true. I begged god to let it be a bad dream. My heart is broken forever. She was my right side and I her left. My life will never be the same.

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Feb 12, 2014
I lost my Twin Sister
by: Doreen UK

Beth I am sorry for your loss of your twin sister. She not only shared the womb with you, but a life where you both grew together. She has now gone and left you so broken and alone. It is such a desperate moment when your loved one has passed, and you feel that empty lonely feelings engulf your mind and body and you can't quite believe this has happened. The days, weeks, and months, pass and it feels unreal still.
I feel like this since I lost my husband 21 months ago. I felt the same devastation. Praying to God to not let him die. I couldn't bear to lose him from my life. I clung to HOPE and Prayer for a miracle that didn't come. I thought that if I only had Hope that He would live. But now I see Hope as just that. I hope you will live and not die. There are no guarantees. Some are healed and other's die. But nevertheless it doesn't make us feel any less lonely without them. No amount of positive thinking or Faith stops us from feeling the pain of grief and loss. Grief is a journey we did not expect but find ourselves on. Looking for ways to survive our loss and re-build our lives without the one's we have lost. Each new day we rise to meet it and hope it will be a better day and help us heal from our loss. None of us knows what each day holds for us. It is as if we stagger blindly on wishing we could turn the clock back and nothing in our life will have changed. Grief is a shattering experience. WE feel as if we have been blown to pieces and can't put ourselves together again. When healing takes place only then will we become whole, and this could take years. TAKING ONE DAY AT A TIME is the only way forward. I FOCUS on GOD. He is my way forward from grief otherwise I would not be able to go on each day. May God come before you and comfort you in your loss and heal you from your despair.

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