I lost the man who showed me life

by Lost in Texas

My husband was in an accident October 21st, I still have not received all the information about his death. I hate that word, it makes me so mad, because it's the final word, there is no other word after it.

My husband never really had anything he enjoyed for himself, if someone else liked it then he did. His joy came from making others happy.
I am now a single mom of 5 and my home is so quiet, my nights are cold and long. I live only for my children.

I have been questioning everything I thought I knew. I wonder if there is more to this life than the dirt hole at the end. My angel was laid down in a dirt hole after his wonderful life ended.
I lost my life that day, and I know I will carry that heavy feeling all the days I am forced to live without him.