I Lost Them All
I am the baby out of 9 children. My mother lost her first when he was only an infant. Six years ago my sister passed away after a long battle with cancer. It was very difficult, we were so close and it was terrible watching my mother suffer the loss of her daughter. The following year, I lost my brother. Then the next year I lost two brothers in the same year. Then last summer I lost my mom. Last week I lost my last brother. Me and my two oldest sisters are all that is left out of a big family. Every passed on so close in time to one another. Cancer, diabetes, aneurysm, heart complications.
All my siblings were middle aged when they passed on and now I am approaching the same age. I am kind scared, its like we have been cursed.
I feel alone, bitter, sad, guilty. so many emotions. It was horrible watching my mom suffer through the loss of so many children, but to watch her pass on simply devastated my spirit.
I miss my family. I miss my parents. I would do anything for just one more day with them all. I am a mother and now I am always telling my children to really appreciate one another as life on this planet is short.
My heart and prayers go out to everyone who has suffered loss... I dont know if I will ever be whole again.