I love and miss her

by Emilie

My grandma was supposed to turn 76 years in August, but she never got that far. She past away in June 8th 2014, and i miss her. She was my best friend who i could talk to about everything. I knew that her door always would be open. She died of Lung cancer. Her cancer was impossible to treat. The tumor was too close to the heart, so it was inoperable. And she was too skinny for kemo. So there was nothing to do. She past away June 8th, and I was devastated. I still am. But no one knows. I am a good actress. My grandma had a big heart and I miss her. I am only 13 and i have no grandparents left. I miss having someone to go to when i am home alone. I miss being brought to trips of my grandparents. Grandma and i used to go to her home city together, and her last trip anywhere was with me. And we traveled there. I miss having her around. Her funeral was on a wednesday, and i trouble through every one of those horrible days. Her funeral is the last memory I have of her. That hurts me. My cousin and i wrote a letter to her, and we left it unread by anyone on top of her coffin. If there's anything such as good, i hope he will bring the letter to her. Then she will know how much we actually love her and miss her. I cry my self to sleep everyday. In the darkness. And everyday i am afraid that i will be left here in the darkness all alone. For ever

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Jul 08, 2014
I love and miss her
by: Doreen UK

Emilie you are only 13yrs. and would not know what grief feels like till it happens. All of us on this site know how you feel, because we all felt the same way in the early days of loss. Recovery is slow and you will feel sad for a while. Crying is good grief, and it feels as if you will cry forever, but you won't. You will feel like you are in the dark, but this will soon go and you will see the light again. Don't forget to talk to your parent's or other relative about how you feel. Don't keep it to yourself. Grief takes a long time to heal from but in time you will heal. Best way forward is TAKING ONE DAY AT A TIME. I am sorry for your loss.

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