I love my mom so much
My mom was diagnosed with ALS in 2008 at age 52. Her and my dad were married for 35 years when she passed away. She died on August 30, 2011 at the age of 55. I was 14 then, and now I am 15. My dad was her caregiver the whole time. I feel like I could of done more and spent more time with her while she was sick and dying. I sometimes feel like she didn't know how much I loved her because I didn't always show it. She was always there for me when I needed her and it feels like when she needed me the most I wasn't there. I regret that everyday and I always think about her. I don't really know how to cope with the fact that I let her down. When she was sick, her and I didn't talk about it much. She always used to tell me that she was always proud of me no matter what and that when I was happy she was happy. She was the most wonderful person I've ever met and I feel so lucky to have had such an amazing person in my life. Now I'm not happy at all, or even content. I don't really know how to deal with anything anymore because of the fact that I let her down. I'm afraid that she died thinking that I didn't love her or want to spend time with her.