i love you daddy..

by Tiarnah

i love you daddy.. R.I.P

i love you daddy.. R.I.P

my mum and dad had been separated for years and I didn't live with either of them. It was the Summer holidays 2009 and I saw my guardians walk out the back almost crying and then they sat me and my 2 older brothers down.. My Grandmother started crying and I didn't understand why she was crying so I began too ask her what was wrong. She stopped and looked me in my eyes and then looked at both of my older brothers and told me that My daddy was sick. I asked her how bad it was because I was really scared and then she broke the news that he had cancer.
I had tried calling him to tell him that i loved him but as soon as he would answer the phone and he heard my voice he hung up.. which I thought he had been cranky at me.
A few weeks later I got a phone call from my sister saying that my dad had passed away at 5 am.
I was kind of just hoping that my sister had played a terrible prank on me... I called his phone and it had gone to voice mail.
I called other family members and they all told me the same thing
I was devastated.
I drove 14 hours to go to his funeral and I couldn't believe that he was actually gone.
Ever since then I have had severe Depression.. I am now 15
R.I.P Darren Leslie Strudwick. <3

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Aug 17, 2013
I love you daddy....
by: Doreen U.K.

Tiarnah I am sorry for your loss of your daddy. You are such a young person and to lose your family and the nurturing of a father must have made you feel so sad in life.
If you could see a counsellor to help you grieve your losses this would help you more through life and your depression would not follow you through life. You have lost a family when your parents separated. You lived far away and did not get to see your father and perhaps lost touch with him until it was too late. You will have so many questions in your mind and not have the answers for. Just don't ever give up knowing your parents LOVED you. In the grown up world life is hard and complex and parents split up for different reasons and it is the children who can often feel they were never loved.
My parents endured poverty and my father never got a good job and the struggles were so bad bringing up 6 children. my parents endured and then divorced late in life. I carried depression throughout my teenage years. I got married at 19yrs. and struggled with depression. In my 40's I went into counselling and became a new person and LIVED FOR the first time in my life. I knew what happiness was. I grieved all my losses in counselling and then went on to live for my family better. I lost my beloved husband of 44yrs. 15 months ago to a deadly cancer. He suffered a lot of pain. Cancer changes a persons personality and behaviour and so I guess your family may have tried to protect you from seeing this. Depression can come with grief, but try and resolve your pain so you don't have to let depression limit your life. Take one day at a time. Life will get better for you in time. Just Don't ever give up!!

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