I Love you my son.

by kay
(Australia)

I am missing you so much I have still cry every night......I found some negatives of you today Deano when we were at Harrington on holidays. I remember those times so clearly. I am so blessed to have these memories. Its just.... that I took them to get developed and they gave them back straight away. I was overwhelmed ...so taken aback by your image ...so handsome so young...my son..whom I will never again hold in my arms....I am so sad tonight...I miss you so much my heart never stops aching.

Motherhood isn't just a series of contractions; it's a state of mind. From the moment we know life is inside us, we feel a responsibility to love unconditionally protect and defend that human being. It's a promise we can't keep no matter how hard we try..I am so sorry I couldnt protect you, I am so sorry that I couldnt hold you after your accident...they wouldnt let me, they wouldnt let me. Ohh my baby I miss you more than words can say..I adore you my son......and will for eternity. You remain in my heart ...you always and forever remain part of me......RIP DEANO .I love you xxx mum

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Oct 10, 2012
Love you
by: Anonymous

I lost my son a few months ago. He passed away in my arms. He would have been one year tomorrow. Although he lived for 8 months, it felt like spending a lifetime with him. His smile,his eyes, his smell.....I have no way to feel his little hands,stroke his cheeks again. I work in health care and it sometimes overwhelm me as all those alarms, monitors remind me of him. The day he died, me and my wife kept holding him from morning in our arms. He slowly drifted away and there is nothing worse than having your child die in your arms and life continuing to go on. We all have a purpose here on this earth and I will serve mine and will wait for the lord to eventually call for me when my time comes. But I am not afraid when the time comes because I know my son will be waiting for me there.
Each day I pray - God keep him happy, safe and protected. I so much miss him......love you my boy.

Feb 16, 2011
thankyou
by: kay

I thank all who commented on my post. You are all unbelievable people...I feel we are connected deeply as each of us who has lost a child knows what an emptiness and pain we are left with.Even mothers who have not lost a child may comprehend our pain because they know how much they love their children.....and can imagine our pain.I love you all xxxxx Oh how I wish I could put my arms around you all in understanding and love to comfort you, if only for a short time....I am thinking of you all as we make our way on our lifetime journey...painfully taking a breath at a time..xxxx

Jan 31, 2011
I know how you are feeling
by: Shirley

Kay...Dimitri's girlfriend posted a video she took of him last June on her cellphone. He had already been admitted into the hospital with leukemia and had already gone through induction therapy. She had shaved his head because he had been told he was going to lose his hair so they decided to be proactive. He was still feeling pretty chipper that day and she videotaped him giving a message to his friends that he was doing great and would be coming home soon. He died August 9th. He never came home. I bawled my eyes out this morning when I opened the video and saw it. He was being his usual silly self and looked so happy. These moments are the ones that tear me apart. I'm sure that's how you were feeling too. It really doesn't make any sense that we lost our beautiful boys at the prime of their lives. I just want my life to go by quickly so I can join him.
Hugs,
Shirley

Jan 31, 2011
Beautiful Tribute
by: Anonymous

What a beautiful letter, Kay. Motherhood is not only a state of mind, it is a gift. A precious gift that lasts a lifetime no matter if our children rarely come home or call or have passed away. Even then, that child remains in our hearts and is counted as still one of the family. He or she never leaves and is not to be forgotten, or gotten over or moved on away from. Wherever I go, my son will always been in my heart. Love you with all my heart, another mom.

Jan 27, 2011
I feel your pain
by: shirley

It doesn't ever go away does it? I'm sitting here tonight crying because I too miss my son. I guess if I had some glimmer of understanding of WHY this happened I'd be able to cope. I don't understand why our sons were taken right at the blossoming of their lives. I just don't understand....

Jan 27, 2011
I love you my son
by: M Mack

Kay,

I feel your pain and know you loved Deano very much. I can't even begin to imagine your sorrow and my heart goes out to you.

When my son was 5 years old, the class did a play for Mothers Day. He is now a 27 year old lawyer. I will never forget the feeling I had that day. I looked around and other mothers also the same. The play was based on the children's book, "I love you forever." A mother sings to her 6 month old "I love you forever, I love you for always, whenever I'm with you, my baby you'll be.". At age 9, 16, 25, she still sings.
When her son grows up and leaves home, she takes to driving across town with a ladder on the car roof, climbing through her grown son's window, and rocking the sleeping man in the same way. Then, inevitably, the day comes when she's too old and sick to hold him, and the roles are at last reversed.

As mothers, we know your pain. You have given life but you did not take it away. You may have had some closure if they gave you one last time to hold him but it wasn't meant to be. Don't torture yourself. He knows you love him and I'm sure he wants to hold you if he could. I pray for you to find some comfort in this site. Keep writing and we are here for you day and night. You have my prayers. One day at a time....

Jan 27, 2011
Sons
by: Anonymous

Today must be the day of extreme sadness & emptiness. I spent most of my day thinking about my son and how much I miss him, I went to the cemetary and sat and cried. I think of him everyday but today he was very heavy on my mind. I wish I had the ability to resurrect our sons from their graves and bring them back to us. I know this can not happen so I live everyday knowing one day maybe tomorrow or maybe next month or next year I will be called home and be with him again.

He oldest son is 16yrs. old I seen on facebook where he wrote on his Dads wall that when people die some want to meet Moses first, most want to meet God but the first thing he wants to do is run to his Dad. This is a very hard hard journey my friend God bless you

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