I miss her more than I can explain
I miss my grandmother. She was taken away from us almost 8years ago. It still hurts incredibly. She was the best thing that happened to me and it hurts my heart that I only got to spend 13 years with her. It feels like 13 days looking back on it.
It's unfair that such a beautiful woman had to die in the way that she did. Nothing's the same. It never will be. I could sit here all night expressing how much I love and miss her but it still wouldn't do. I just feel like I'll never recover from it. I feel like she was brutally snatched from us. She was ill for quite a while but toward the end of her heart failure it became agonizing to watch. I would go to the hospital everyday after school and sit with her.
I long to be with her again. She meant the world to me and more.
I feel like I'll never know how to deal with this, I'll never be able to think of her without crying. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to live without her. It still hasn't sunk in.
Sometimes I sit and think about what she'd look like now & the conversations we'd have. She's missed so much. I sometimes can't help but feel guilty for missing her because she was so ill, she had to go onto a better place.
I've had 2 different types of counseling in a hope that I'll be able to focus on the dear memories I have of her but none of them were successful.
My heart yearns for her. She was my number 1. Every tear I cry is for her and has been ever since she died. I love her more than life itself and it breaks my spirit in two, to think about the fact that I'll never see her again.