i miss her so badly
My grandma passed away last year and I still cannot accept she's gone. She was really ill in hospital but she'd been admitted many times before and pulled through she was a fighter but this time she didn't win this fight illness had beat her. I remember finding out about her death I was numb and carried on with daily routine like going to school but I remember people passing on sympathy at school and when I got home it hit me that she had passed away I remember crying and crying and all I felt was pain and sadness. Her funeral was really emotional too I remember trying to remain strong but my auntie whispered " it's okay to cry" and that was the point were I totally broke down. It's been a year and 3 months since she passed away and the pain hasn't got better and it hasn't gotten any easier. I do get support from my deputy head teacher at school which is really good and does help as I don't feel alone and she actually understands. The last year has been such a struggle as my grief has been very difficult. I ended up being referred to an organisation for counselling which was very difficult but in a way it did help. I think overall it did save me from things getting worse and it helped me manage my feelings more. Even today I still feel pain and grief but I do try so hard to get through this. I just hate the month of December as Christmas is really hard. But the thing I'm doing is getting support. I just miss my grandma so much I just wish she was here.