I miss her so much

by Vincent
(Ontario)

Yesterday was a year since my precious mother was taken from me 13 days after being diagnosed with ovarian cancer. My father died 9 years ago of throat cancer. Now I am an orphan. I am a single 46 year old only child. I have a big extended family but they don't seem to get why I am not better yet. I know an asking myself the same question. Maybe I will never recover. The pain I feel I can't even describe. How can you move on when two thirds of your family is dead. My parents lived for me and I was treated like a King. I in turn adored them and finding that I am just existing and not living. Everyone thinks that now that the one year is done i should be better. I think I am worse. My mother suffered a very painful death with this cancer. I never left her side. I wanted to trade places with her i pleaded to GOD to give it to me and leave her alone but of course that was not the case. I am on several antidepressants and anti anxiety medications that work on and off. I go to work come home and just want to hiberate. My mother lived with me we were very close. Unless you are an only child other people don't understand your relationship with your parents.I don't want to feel this way.

Click here to post comments

Return to Lost Moms.

[?]Subscribe To This Site
  • XML RSS
  • follow us in feedly
  • Add to My Yahoo!
  • Add to My MSN
  • Subscribe with Bloglines

RSS Feed Widget
->


 POPULAR
  RESOURCES


Tap into the compassion, support and wisdom of the

GRIEF CLUB


Essential Healing Guide

Grief Relief
Program

Free Griefwork
E-Course

Free Stress
Management
E-Course



SBI Video Tour!