I miss her

by Mia Murphy

I'm 13 now, today was my birthday. And the past. Year has been the hardest ever. Thers been times when I have wanted to give up. I lost my Grandma on 22/11/12 the worst day of my whole life. She's way my rock. I loved her and still do love her so much. I still can't get over the fact that I won't see her for a very long time. She was my bestfriend, someone to go to whenever I needed her. I cry every night because of my loss but I haven't ever told my mum I'm afraid that she will become too upset. I have only told my closest friend about this. I Hate my self for not going to see her as often as I could,I wish that I could say one last goodbye to her because I never got to as she was in the hospital and if chose not to got (another reason why I hate myself) I just want to say thank you for reading my story, I hope you too can soon bpcope th your loos and I am so sorry for any of your losses. I dread loosing anybody else but I suppose I'll just have to cope. I don't think anything will come close to the pain that I have gone through over loosing me precious grandma Lynda. Thankyou,

Mia Murphy x

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Nov 07, 2013
I miss her
by: Doreen UK

Mia, Happy Birthday! I am sorry for your loss of your grandma and how this loss of her makes you feel. You are so young and so not mature enough to understand that we do know and understand the terrible pain of grief. We all have different life's experiences. But the Pain is the same but in different degrees and depth of pain due to the relationship and bond we had with the loved one we lost.
Don't be afraid to talk to your mom and let her know your feelings and what you are going through. She will understand. I am a Mom and I would feel hurt if my little girl was hurting so much and couldn't tell me about it. When our children hurt we hurt more. Your mom carried you inside her for 9 months and she has a bond with you that is so full of Love and understanding. Your mom won't even be hurt if you loved your grandma more. This is how children feel and react. Mother's understand the relationship between a grandparent and their child. Grandparents love to spoil their grandchildren. Sometimes it is even easier to talk to a grandparent than perhaps your own mom and dad. This is just a fact of life.
You may like to keep a journal and write in this all your hurt feelings about losing your grandma and what this has done to you. You can even write letters to your grandma in your journal. This is another way to heal from the pain of grief. I wish you better days ahead and hope life treats you well.

Nov 07, 2013
by: Anonymous

Grief is an awful emotion to go through, I having lost my Mum this year too I can empathise with your loss.

Your Mum will also be expereiencing the same emotions as you and she is most probably protecting you also by trying not to show her sadness. I personally would share your grief with your Mum and don't worry crying is certainly part of grieving and is necessary to help with the heeling process. Speak with your Mum and share your memory's of your Gran and the times you had together, this will help you both. You will need each other and talking can only help you through this painful time.

We all have regrets that we should of done more been around more often again this is grieving. so don't beat yourself up about it, your Gran obviously loved you and was happy with the way things were, and I am sure she wouldn't want you adding to your grief with negative emotions as guilt, you have enough with getting over your loss.

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