I miss him everyday
(Stoke on Trent, england)
My wonderful husband passed away on 14th August 2011. He was the person I had waited my whole life for and after only 11 months together and engaged to be married he got diagnosed with an extremely rare lymphoma. - Hepatosplenic Lymphoma. He was 28. He started chemo straight away and we planned for a bone marrow transplant after 3-4 lots of chemo.
We got married 8 weeks later and it was the happiest time of our lives!! It was lovely to see him smiling and beaming away all day. I was just so in love with him and thought we could fight anything as long as we were together.
By the end of our honeymoon he was getting weak and after just over 2 months of marriage he passed away with me and his family by his side. He was so brave right to the end and only thought how hard it would be for us. What a selfless thing, what a man!
I am thankful everyday for meeting him, and apart from the diseaase and losing him, I would not change a thing. If someone had asked me when I met him did I want to continue knowing I would lose him, I would have said yes!
I think about him everyday almost all of the time. I dream about him and spend a lot of time talking to him when I am on my own. It has been almost a year and I still expect to see him walk through the door, ring me or text me or send me a silly email.
There are some days when it is even hard to get out if bed, but he made me promise to not be sad forever. He made me promise to move on and meet new people. Whilst I cannot conceive doing that now, it is the promise I made to him that gets me through. It is still his strength that holds my own in place.
I love him and always will and cannot wait for the day to come when I will once again be with him.