I miss Jack!
Jack had diabetes and was very sick, his kidneys were shutting down. Options were limited and very expensive. My husband and I made the decision to end his life, probably the most painful decision I have ever had to make. He left us so quickly – Monday, July 6 at 7:30 pm. I know I told him I loved him and that he was best dog ever. I have such regrets - regrets that I didn’t stay with him until it was over. I’m a coward – I can still hear his whimper when I walked out of the room.
Jack was my first dog. My mother would never let us have pets – too messy. The first two years Jack was with me, I would have paid someone to take him off my hands but after, true love. He went everywhere with me. If I was home, he was by my side. He was a true buddy.
I feel empty and alone. I am angry and so sad. My husband says I need to get over it and ‘just stop thinking about him.’ Telling me I should remember all the rotten things Jack would do.
People keep asking me if I am going to get another dog – like no big deal. My daughter posted that she said goodbye to ‘her buddy’ all night and she wasn’t even there. I am mad that she did that.
I am just trying to stay busy at work and watching TV all the time when I get home from work. I am dreading this weekend. My favorite thing to do over the weekend would be get up and walk Jack and get coffee. He was so happy to trail all over exploring new places. I miss him and my heart is broken.
Jack – I will never forget you. Rest in peace my beautiful baby.