I Miss My Best Friend "My Mom"
On 11/02/11, I lost my mom and am absolutely devastated over my loss. I thought the worse day of my life was on 03/27/03, when I lost my dad, but this was even worse since it was my second parent and my mom's death was very unexpected. While she had not been feeling well for a while, I finally convinced her to go to the hospital to be evaluated and treated and just three days later I received a call that my mom had aspirated gastric fluid into her lungs and was on a respirator. I could not believe it since this is the last thing I expected to hear. From that day on, it seemed like it was all downhill since my mom was not recovering and each day I was told she may come off the respirator, it just never happened. After speaking to the doctors and getting my mom's prognosis, I made the very difficult decision of honoring my mom's wishes as stated in her living will and had her removed from life support. That was probably the most difficult decision I have ever had to make, but I know in my heart I did the right thing and have no regrets, yet I miss my mom terribly and feel as if I will never get over my loss. I know people say in time I will start to accept my loss and feel a little better, but right now, that seems to far away. I am an only child so my mom was the world to me, yet I feel so alone now even though I am married and have two children. I lost my dad when he was 72 years old and now my mom at 76, but I really always believed my mom would live well into her 80's or even 90's, yet that never happened and I am filled with grief over that fact. The only positive thing I can say if there is anything positive in all of this is that my parents are now reunited with each other and hopefully happy in a better place.