My brother committed suicide just 3 and a half weeks ago. I miss him so much it hurts. He had been going through a tough time he had lost his girlfriend in 8/2010 when a drunk driver hit them while riding their motorcycle. My brother survived although I know we lost a big part of him that day because he loved his girlfriend so much and he wanted to marry her. They were just starting their life out. 7 months later my brother puts a gun to his head and kills himself one night after he gets home from the bar. The last person at the bar to see him said that he was so drunk he could barely function. I did not see any signs that he was thinking about doing this... I had seen him at least 4 times that week and had no clue... He promised me he would not do this. 26 years old and the best guy in the world. We had been through so much together our childhood was chaotic to say the least but we always had each other. My brother walked me down the aisle at my wedding. He came and changed my tire if it was flat day or night. He would of done anything for our family but now he is gone. I just think if he were not that drunk that night he would not have done that he would of never left our mother this way but now he does not get the chance to wake up and regret his decision and I am left on this earth without my brother and one of my best friends. I do not think anyone understands the pain that is going on inside. I just want to scream most of the time. I miss my brother more than words can say. I started counseling, I talk about him all the time, and I bought several books to read. I am trying everything that I can think of to help but I still am in soo much pain. I miss and I love him so much.
I lost my brother 12 days ago to suicide and I am just sick...I dont know how I am going to go on in this world without him. He had a few problems with drugs but NEVER thought it would come to this. I do not know how to cope and I am having a horrible time! I just dont know what to do....
I lost my brother too by: Anonymous
He committed suicide on Jan 2 this year. The pain is unlike anything I've ever had to endure. I've been getting counseling too. Stick with it if you can, I think it will help in the long run. I've been going to a support group too, and that has also been helpful. I'm really sorry. I can't know your particular pain, but I do know how badly it hurts. Stay strong if you can, it's not easy. I'm thinking about you.
Peace by: KIT
My brother committed suicide just over a year ago..Part of me died that day too. I feel your sorrow but mostly your love for him and want you to know you are not alone and your sharing your story touched my heart. WE can always say why, what if, we should of or could of..but in the end we just have to live with the hole in our hearts. I hope you find peace and know that he is is at peace with his girlfriend..sending you the hope to find peace with his passing again..I am still looking myself but will not stop trying. God bless you
Missing your brother by: Anonymous
I lost my son to suicide 9/20/10 this is the hardest grief anyone can endure. Suicide is very cruel it leaves us survivors with many unanswered questions. It will be 7 months on the 20th since he died and his sisters & brother myself & his dad still have bad days, there is not a minute in the day that I don't think of him, hes on my mind day & night. I have read many books in the past 7 months & I have been to counseling. I really didn't find counseling made me feel any better & the books help a little but this is something each one of us have to learn to cope with in our own way & our own time, it doesn't seem anyone or anything really helps because what we want is to wake up from this terrible nightmare & have our life back. I do not know how long it will take for us to cope but I have been told there is a light at the end of tunnel. We will survive, we have to survive because I would never want my family member to endure this kind of pain again but I know one thing for sure when it's all said & done I will be coming out a completely different person then I was before. God bless the broken road we travel.
