Yesterday morning i got a phone call from my brother, I knew it wasn't good because he usually sleeps in. He found my 61 yr old dad passed away next to his be. My dad was my best friend. We did everything together. Hunting, fishing. My dad was all i had, he raised all three of us when him and my mother got divorced when i was 8. I just don't understand why? why him? Why my dad? He didn't deserve to die. He was such a good man. He loved his kids so much and I have a 3 yr old son who's never gonna get to meet his grandpa. I am 27 yrs old and am having such a terrible time with this. I keep waking up praying that this is all just a bad dream but its not, he's gone.
My brother also found my father a month ago in his bed!!! I would wake up wanting all of this to be a bad dream, sometimes I would wake up crying so hard! I have never felt a raw pain like this in my life!!! I am taking one step at a time and not trying go crazy!!! I miss him so much!!!! I am a dads girl the youngest of three older brothers and it has brought us closer together! I have faith in God and I know if it wouldn't have happen now it would be later.. I guess we all have a numbered! This will just take me some time!!!
losing your dad by: Anonymous
I am so very sorry for your loss. I can only imagine the sadness in realizing your own son will not know your father. I lost my mom 2 weeks ago and so my grief journey is only beginning. I am fortunate in that my daughter knew and loved my mom. In this moment, I cannot imagine never hearing my mother's voice again. Perhaps it will help you to consider how your dad would want you to feel. You will undoubtedly come to realize that he does not want you suspended in pain. Do not put your grief aside, but know that it's not forever. Keep photos of your dad where your son will see them and tell him stories his whole life. In that way, he will understand the great love that is passed from father to son.
