I Miss my dad every day
(Durban, South Africa)
My dad passed away on Aug 17th after suffering from cancer. He had a rare form of cancer and there was nothing they could do for him. He was my rock, the person I knew I could always count on. He never judged, he allowed me to make my own mistakes and picked up the pieces.
I watched him suffer and nursed him to the end. It was very hard to see him weak and unable to do the simple things like drink water. The day he passed away, he was very weak and struggling to breathe. We called an ambulance to take him to the hospital. He didn't really know what was going on. I believe he knew he was going to die.
At the hospital he didn't want us to touch him, and it was as if he was pushing us away. He didn't want us (my brother and sister) to see him like that. Once the morphine kicked in, he settled and was breathing a little easier.
We decided to all go outside for 5 minutes to get some fresh air. This is when my dad passed away. He looked so peaeful and rested. I know he is in a better place where he is not suffering and he is happy. It is so hard not having him around. I cry everyday for him.
Thank you for this website, to be able to read other stories and know someone out there understands your pain and loss.