I miss my dear Debbie so much.
(Port St. Lucie, Florida)
I really can't believe that the love of my life is gone. She was only 49 years old. She died on September 21, 2013 from brain cancer. My Deb was fine until she started to get headaches that wouldn't go away (this was in April of 2013). We took her to the emergency room and they did an mri. The test showed that she had a glioblastoma...which is a very aggressive brain tumor. She got radiation and chemotherapy and steroids. She only lasted for five months after getting diagnosed. I am three months into my grief and my symptoms are much worse now than they were a few weeks ago. I can hardly eat (I have lost a lot of weight). I have a great deal of trouble concentrating. I have a great deal of anxiety. Part of me wants to take some medicine to help to take the edge off. My therapist and Group counselor at Hospice say that I need to go thru my grief without taking Meds. I am trying to take things one moment at a time. But I am very hard on myself. I think that I need to get over this. But the fact of the matter is that I can't make myself feel better. I know I must feel the excruciating pain that this grief is causing. I miss Deb so much. We were married for 13 years. This is the worst time in my life. I look forward to hearing your replies. Thanks so much for listening. Ken