I miss my love and best friend
I lost my husband on January 8th 2012 he was taken in to hospital on Jan 1st after he collapsed at home.I thought he had the flu but he had Legionnaires disease and died very suddenly he was only 58 and it was far too early for him to go we had been together for 30 years.It has been 2 weeks since he left me and the pain is so hard to bear i want him back so desperately. I don't think i can go on without him he was my rock and best friend. i am so lost it is so painful living without him i feel so alone.
It is like someone has ripped out my heart i feel so empty i cant concentrate on anything there are so many things that remind me of him. I have his hairbrush under my pillow to smell him.I sleep with his favourite top what the hell is going on? I cant work all i do is cry and get angry i don't want to be on my own and then i want to be on my own i think i am going crazy.I think this is hell on Earth i can't sleep , eat i pray to god for strength but i don't think he is listening to me.We had so many plans for 2012 and now there doesnt seem any point in anything anymore. Please somebody make this pain stop !!!!!!