I miss my mama so much...

Well to start off I lost my best friend, my mama on Feb 7, 2013. My mama went in for a simple surgery on Jan 31,2013 and something went wrong about 20 minutes into surgery. I miss her so much and just want to talk to her one more time. She died so suddenly and it is just so hard to understand. My mama died 9 days before my first child was born. She was so excited to meet her and hold her. I don't know how to move on with my life without her. It is so hard and every time I look at my baby girl I see my mom. I just wish she was still her and at least could have been in the delivery room with me. What girl doesn't want her mom in the delivery room with there first child. My mama and I was so close, me and my husband lived with her and my dad. I was the one who did everything for her and my dad. I tell my baby girl stories of her nanny and she will just stare at me and listen. I just sit here and cry wishing I had my mama back. I need her so bad right now. My mama was the best person I know, she let my husband move in when he had no where to go, she always had my side no matter what, she would do anything in this world for me and my baby girl if she was here. Who do I ask when I need parenting advice, well I can't ask my mom because she can't answer me. It sucks and I would do anything to have her back. I will never let my baby girl forget her nanny.... RIP mama I love you with all my heart...

Comments for I miss my mama so much...

Click here to add your own comments

Apr 14, 2013
by: Betty

The sharp raw pain will dull but the memories will fade. I am sure she does not want you suffer and she would have protected you. I know it is hard and my mom passed under a month. I keep reminding myself that this is not want me to be and its' the physical self that is missing her but she lives in my heart forever. We need to focus and talk ourselves through the grieve. Cry as much as you want and one day you will stop crying though you will still miss her like it just happened. I am struggling and the intense pain is still raw for me. The way I talk myself is that she wouldn't want me to be miserable, she went through it with her parents, and I rather go through this pain for her than she does for us. Take care.

Apr 12, 2013
I miss my mama so much....
by: Doreen U.K.

I am sorry for your loss of your mom. It is one of the most difficult experiences to lose our parents and a spouse. As this hurts more than any loss due to the close bond we establish with them in life. I lost my husband 11 months ago and this is the worst loss for me. I lost my mom 10yrs. ago and only just accepting of this. But the death of my husband and I can't imagine getting over this any time soon if ever.
You will remember how your mom interacted with you and you will remember her parenting skills which will help you as you go on each day. Look for support from your aunties and also other relatives who can be a mentor to you just now. Day ahead will be difficult, but keep in mind they will get easier in time. WE are prone to think we will be in this much pain forever. But it will pass.

Click here to add your own comments

Return to Lost Moms.

[?]Subscribe To This Site
  • follow us in feedly
  • Add to My Yahoo!
  • Add to My MSN
  • Subscribe with Bloglines

RSS Feed Widget


Tap into the compassion, support and wisdom of the


Essential Healing Guide

Grief Relief

Free Griefwork

Free Stress

SBI Video Tour!