I Miss My Mom(and Dad)
by Dominique Miller
My mom died from a massive heart attack on November 21, 2012, two days after my 24th birthday. She was found dead inside our home on November 22, 2012. I was away at grad school. She was 46 years old. Even though it has been ten months, it is still hard for me. Part of me feels like I should be over it by now while another part of me feels like I can't get over it. I think that it is especially hard for me because I lost my father in December of 2007, also from a massive heart attack. He died during my freshman year of undergrad. He was 42 years old. I am an only child and at times I feel very lonely. It's hard for me to hear my friends and family talk about what their going to do with their moms while mine is no longer here. Last month I thought I was doing better. But now I feel like the depression has come back and I often feel jealous and angry at others who still have their moms and dads. I have even started to associate school with death, since both of my parents died while I was in school. Is it normal to still be grieving?