I miss my mom/bestfriend

by Stephanie
(Ontario, Canada)

My mom was 45 and on March 1, 2012 she went to the ER with bad cramps which seem to.be period cramps. The doc told her she had a tumour on her overay. On march 4th she was admitted into the hospital because lack of food and nutrician and pain as well. On march 16th she started chemo. On March 24th at 4:30am she died.
How does this happen.

My mom is my best friend my only one true friend i have never ever lied or kept anything from her ever. My true bestfriend.
Iam 25 married with a beautiful baby boy who turned 1 on the 21st of march she was in delivery with me and my husband. She also leaves a husband my lil sis who is only 9.

She needs her mom for her first date, bf, prom, wedding, baby. Ive been super strong through the death funeral and everything for my family byt now its been 3 weeks and im starting to crumble.
Has anyone been down this path does the clouds move away.

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Apr 29, 2012
I cry like a baby even though I had it all with her
by: Anonymous

The tears, panic, sleeplessness, inability to make decisions, forgetfulness - these are just some of the symptoms from losing my mommy & best friend. Faith & God give comfort, but I'm only human. I want her hugs, smile, to hear her singing, her gift of unconditional love, I want her, I had it all, and I would trade everything to have her back! I realized that I would never get enough of Mom. I'm proud that I did everything I could do, I still think "what if I..."? My family says they have never seen such devotion, I could not do anymore. I just can't seem to go on, I lost the greatest woman, Christian, friend, mother, and I feel so alone. Empty house, empty heart. She was suppose to be home after Christmas, but she had fought for over 6 months, brain-damage from oxygen loss, would have had a horrible life. She then got pneumonia and I got a call at 2am saying they did all they could do, I remember my scream of piercing agony. How do I go on?

Apr 25, 2012
Ovarian Cancer ~ the Silent Killer
by: Anonymous

I too lost my mom to ovarian cancer on 25 August 2011. She was my best friend! I want her back so badly ~ but not sick...I was lucky enough to be holding her when she took her last breath! She spoke up until that very last breath! I told her it was ok to let go, that I would be ok...she said "ok" and that was it ~ her last breath...she was diagnosed on 31 March 2011, endured three rounds of chemo that did absolutely nothing! I hate cancer! It stole my mom from me! I cry all the time...I wanted to die too just so I could be with her...but I have two kids (11 & 13 years old) and she made me promise that I would be strong for them...so must keep that promise...

I have to take sleeping pills or I would never sleep and Ativan for anxiety... I asked my mom how she survived losing her mom? She said it took about four years to be able to carry on without thinking about my grandmother all the time...I think about my mom every second of every day...

Somehow we will survive, it's the circle of life...I used to be so sure about spirits of loved ones, and heaven...now I don't know ~ are they really with us? I hope so...

Apr 13, 2012
The clouds do move away
by: Novi

Like you, my mom was my best friend too.

She died last November of Kidney cancer. I like to take comfort in the fact that she wasn't sick for very long, and that she doesn't suffer anymore. The first few weeks after she died were confusing - it was almost as though I knew from a logical standpoint that she was gone, but for some reason I was in denial. I also didn't understand why the world just kept turning when someone so important was suddenly gone from it. It's only been 5 months... and I know everyone is different... but it was two weeks ago that I moved past what is called "Frozen grief". I know I have a long journey ahead of me, as do you... but I assure you that I can now see the sun shine a bit through the clouds.

Apr 13, 2012
miss my mom too
by: Pat J

I lost my mom, when I was 29 to breast cancer. That was on June 25,1976. It was the day before my 11th wedding anniversary. I had 5 children; my baby was 3 months old. it will be 36 years she is gone. I still miss her, but the pain does lessen. We never forget though and cherish yor memories. Always do things to make your mom proud.
Now to the present; on June 27th, 2011, I lost my husband of 46 years to a massive heart attack; the day after our 46th wedding anniversary, which is June 26th. This June is going to be a challenge for me; June 25th_mom's death anniversary, June 26th- would be married 47 years; and June 27th-the one year anniversary of my husbands death. Why did God put all three together? There hs to be a reason; I haven't figured it out yet. My husband was there for me when my mom died. A part of me went with my husband when he died. I am taking it one day at a time; faking it until I make it.
You too will make it. I know your heartache. All of us here, who come to this site do. Talk to your mom; I still talk to both of my parents and my husband everyday. They are physically gone, but their spirit will always be with us; they live in our heart.

Apr 13, 2012
miss my mom too
by: Pat J

I lost my mom, when I was 29 to breast cancer. That was on June 25,1976. It was the day before my 11th wedding anniversary. I had 5 children; my baby was 3 months old. it will be 36 years she is gone. I still miss her, but the pain does lessen. We never forget though and cherish yor memories. Always do things to make your mom proud.
Now to the present; on June 27th, 2011, I lost my husband of 46 years to a massive heart attack; the day after our 46th wedding anniversary, which is June 26th. This June is going to be a challenge for me; June 25th_mom's death anniversary, June 26th- would be married 47 years; and June 27th-the one year anniversary of my husbands death. Why did God put all three together? There hs to be a reason; I haven't figured it out yet. My husband was there for me when my mom died. A part of me went with my husband when he died. I am taking it one day at a time; faking it until I make it.
You too will make it. I know your heartache. All of us here, who come to this site do. Talk to your mom; I still talk to both of my parents and my husband everyday. They are physically gone, but their spirit will always be with us; they live in our heart.

Apr 13, 2012
u sound like me
by: Anonymous

My mother died one year ago of ovarian cancer. We thought it was the flu meanwhile it was stage 4 ovarian cancer. She died 13 days after being told. I am a walking disaster. This is not living this is just existing. I am an only child unmarried and my mother lived with me my father died 9 years ago of cancer as well. I asked and ask God to take me as well because i miss her so much. I don't know how u feel but being through this hell i have a true understanding. I am still in total shock. I as well made it through the funeral and all that but it was after that that reality set in and i don't like it nor do i accept it. I was such a strong person and now i am not. I don't understand how some people can keep it together so quickly because that is certainly not me. You are not alone in this horrible journey don't every think u are the only one because their are many of us following this awful journey.

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