I miss my wife
I just lost my wife to depression.On Friday March 23, my beautiful wife took her life at the age of 40. I am so sad and I miss her so much right now but I know she is still here with me in my heart.We have been together for over 11 years. She was my wife, my love, my best friend. We spent almost every day together in those 11 years. I feel lost alone and lonely.I do have a really good support system..... I miss my wife.
She tried to kill her self in December so we moved back in with her parents. She seemed to be on the up and up on Friday but I feel that she was faking it. Her parents left to do there taxes and I went to pick up her medication. Before I left she told me to get a hair product for her, so i left feeling good that she was going to be ok. I got home and her father asked me where is Rebecca,I thought she was with you.
I said, I think she is upstairs. He said, no I just check, maybe she went for a walk.
I started to feel a little funny so I went upstairs. The bedroom door was wide open so I went in and walked in to the bathroom where I found my wife hanging from her belt that she had tide to my pull up bar. I screamed then I yelled, "WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME!" followed by " HELP! HELP! HELP!"
I pulled her down laid her flat on her back and started performing CPR. She had no breath and no pulse. By this time her dad came in and handed me the phone, for he had called 911.I continued with the CPR. Paramedics came very fast and took over. I knew she was gone but I had hope for her survival.
I was by myself in the hospital when the doctor came to me with the news. " I am sorry we did all we could. Her heart stopped from asphyxiation. I cried and i felt so alone as I still do. I miss my wife...