I miss you Dad.

I am 21 years old and my father has died, at 62 years old today, after a year and six months of being in and out of hospitals and nursing homes. I was not there when he died in the hospital, but I got to see his body before they took him to the morgue. He was so cold but he looked so peaceful. Even though, I know that he is no longer suffering, I still feel like a piece of me is missing. Our entire house feels empty without him. He was so loud and had a strong spirit and big heart. Even though we has our difference and issues, I could always count on him to love me. When I was in high school I was overweight and other kids teased me, but everyday he told me that I was beautiful. I still struggle with my weight today and I don't have my dad to comfort me anymore. I know that i have a long road of grief ahead of me, it will never be the same without him. I am so distraught that as I write this tears blind me and my finger numbly touch the keyboard, and it will probably be full of grammatical errors, but i can't bring myself to care.

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Jul 16, 2012
You only live once
by: Samirah

Hi
I know losing your Dad is really tough,it's like nothing make sense anymore. Please love yourself like he would do and comfort yourself.I also have weight issue.Since my dad died I have been getting thinner and thinner. My point is love yourself. He would not want you to be depressed. He still lives inside you and everyday wake up with a smile on your face because you know he is looking over you

Jun 19, 2012
Hand on your shoulder..
by: Chandra

My mom was 61 when she passed in February, and like your dad in and out of nursing homes and hospitals. People tried to lessen my grief by telling me it was a good thing my mom died and that she was sick for a long time and had been released from her pain. There's nothing more infuriating than hearing someone try to justify your parent's death- like they had it coming and we should be grateful that it happened. People also told me that I should be used to not having my mom around- that I really hadn't had a mom in a long time because of her ongoing illness. What they didn't realize is because she couldn't put the effort out on her part to have a relationship with me, I did everything in my power to include my mom in my life. For all of my adult life, and part of my childhood, all I knew was taking care of my mom. My life revolved around mom's care- where she was, what she needed, how she was feeling. Everything I did I had to ask myself- what about mom? You would think that letting go of all of that stress and responsibility would be a good thing, and it some ways it was. I found myself having to change my life completely- no more visiting mom at breakfast, no more feeding mom lunch, no more making sure to bring my daughter in to see her after work, no more having to make sure mom was included in the holiday festivities in some way because she could not physically get there, the list was endless. People sympathize with me when I tell them my mom has died- but the sympathy kind of leaves their eyes when I tell them under what circumstances- or how long she was sick. The conversation immediately turns to "Well, she's in a better place." My hand is on your shoulder- just wanted to let you know that you are not alone and there are others out there who understand your story and what you are going through.

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