I Miss You Mom
I lived with my Mother for most of my life except for 10 years of when I was married. I was able to take care of her and work 80 hours a week till almost the end. We didn't always get along but I guess I never thought I would feel so lost without her and feel such pain. She has been gone for 5 months now and I was doing pretty well the last month or so but now I feel sick and lost and depressed. I guess it's harder since I still live in her home.
She was a 101 when she passed with her mind still very good. I know she is with God now and that gives me much consolation but I still miss her so much it hurts. I don't have a husband now nor do I have children and siblings so I feel very alone. Gosh the pain can be so bad at times but I know it is natural and I must go through it. I am proud of myself for keeping on trying but really it is the hardest time of my life now. My friends have tried to be supportive but they just want me to get over it and move forward and feeling so down it is very hard to do.
I will keep trying and I will keep loving my Mom forever and I am happy that she had a gentle death. At 101 she was very blessed; never ever had any serious illnesses nor pain. I miss you Mom sooooo much and know that you are in God's hands but I wish you were still here and all the changes I have had to go through these last 5 months have been pretty scary and hard on me. Anyway Mom dear, take care in heaven and know that I love you and I wish you were still here and we were both young again. Luv you Mom!