I miss you my sisters
by robin hensley
In April 2013 I lost my older sister and in june 2013 I lost another sister to cancer. Two years before I lost my brother to a heart attack. I took care of my sister with cancer for 4 years. I work full time but only missed 2 appointments in that time period. There are days when I get so mad at myself because I really dont know which one to cry for. Im in such a slump and try to be happy,especially at work, but i cry myself to sleep often. No one knows the heartache i have. I was hoping 2014 would bring my family and heart some comfort only to find out another sister is dying with cancer. God, where does it stop. My heart cant take much more.
To make things worse, my younger sister" who i am closer to than anyone" wont speak to me because she got her feelings hurt at one of the funerals. I depended on her for comfort but now I cry for her all the time. I miss her as bad as the ones that have passed.
Not sure how to deal with these feelings. I work in mental health but its different because I listen to people every day and I just want to scream sometimes ''I have lost a lot more than you so deal with it" I know, not professional, but its how I feel sometimes.