I miss you so much dad :(
My dad died very suddenly on the 16th of July from a heart attack aged 65. I am 22 years old and now the though of my life and future just seems so empty and bleak without him. My dad was such a kind,caring, loving and wise man and he helped me in so many areas of my life, and became my role model for both me and my sister. It has been nearly 3 months since it happened and I still can't get my head around the fact that he's gone :(
Throughout his life he had a series of health issues and when he was 39 he had a major heart attack which very nearly killed him then so from that day onwards we all made sure we told him just how much we loved him and appreciated him as the doctors told us it would happen again one day. Now that he's gone I can take comfort in knowing that I let him know each and every day just how much I thought of him and that I loved him beyond words but I would do anything just to bring him back and to tell him once more how much he really meant to us all :(. Now I have to look after my mum and help her- my dad was her everything and now she is completely destroyed and it's so upsetting to see her this way. My sister is much older than me and is extremely busy with 2 young children- I'm still living at home so at the minute I feel like I'm taking on 2 lots of grief. I love my mother dearly and have told her to talk to me and to cry on me when ever she needs and wants to but its just becoming so hard to see her like this :( I know time is the only healer and we just have to be there for one another but at the minute everything just seems impossible.
I love you dad always and forever thank you for everything and for making me who I am today. I hope you are watching down on us and you are at peace <3