I Miss You

My Grandad passed away very suddenly in hospital after we thought he was getting better. I have just celebrated my first birthday without him here and I feel so alone. He and I were so close. I miss hearing him talk to me. I miss hearing him say my name and laugh with me at our silly jokes. He always called me "his lovely girl" and the fact that no one will ever call me that again is breaking my heart.
I have no guilt about the way my life was spent with him. I never went a day without telling him I loved him. But it hurts so much not to have him here with me anymore. I dreamt about him hugging me last night, and it felt so real that I could feel the wool of his jumper against my cheek. I hate that it wasn't real.
I hope things get better with time, but for now it feels so unfair that my wonderful, lovely Grandfather who was so kind and believed in me more than anyone in the world has been snatched away from me before I even had a chance to say goodbye.

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Mar 26, 2014
Feel so alone
by: Anonymous

I never had the privilege of meeting either of my grandfathers you were very blessed to have him and have such a beautiful loving relationship. I have lost my three brothers the last being on Mother's day last year and both my parents are gone as well. I am the only surviving member of my family. They all died way to young I am only 54yrs and a day does not go by that I don't think of them especially the holidays. I hate them but I have to be strong for my grandchildren. If your grandfather came to you in a dream he came to comfort you and let you know he is always with you. Celebrate his life by telling the silly jokes you shared he is in your heart and will live on in your memories. God Bless you there is no timetable for grieving each of us deal with it in our own way and don't let anyone tell you get over it if you need to cry then cry. Peace be with you.

Mar 26, 2014
Feel the same
by: Anonymous

I'm sorry to read about your grandfather. I know exactly how you feel. My father passed away suddenly last year, and none of us got to say goodbye to him. We were all very close, and my father had such a special relationship with my children. He did a lot with them and supported them in everything they did. He was a lot of fun. They miss him so,so much, and the hole in our lives is huge. Like you, we are thankful and have no regrets about how we lived our lives with him, and he knows how much he meant to us. I hope you can begin to heal and may your wonderful memories bring you some comfort. Hugs, Barb

Mar 26, 2014
Grandparents are special
by: Becky

I am so sorry for the loss of your grandfather. I was close to my Grandmother and I miss her very much. Time will ease the pain, but I believe your heart will always miss your grandfather. My Mother passed away 7 months ago, and I usually cry at some point every day, and I think of her constantly. I am hoping that time will help. I have been told by others that I will never get over losing my Mother. My Mother and I were very close; losing her has made me feel very alone.
Think of your grandfather in heaven with Jesus this helps me with my grief. I think of my Mother walking on streets of gold, alive, well, young, & happy! I imagine her walking in beautiful gardens. Gardens that are so beautiful that we have never seen anything like it or can even imagine how beautiful they are. They are in a better place, no pain or sadness.
I am a Grandmother, and I love my grandchildren very, very much! Grandchildren are special too! My daughter has three little ones, and I keep them every Friday night, and they are very spoilt. I stay in trouble! I understand the bond between grandparents & their grandchildren. Your grandfather was lucky to have such a wonderful granddaughter. I fear when my 3 little ones get older that they will stop coming to see me; as their lives get busy with school and friends. I treasure every time I see them. I know this is how your grandfather loved you; you were a treasure to him, and he loved you very much.
I will keep you in my prayers.

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