I Need Another Miracle...............

by TrishJ

My Handsome Husband

My Handsome Husband

My friend and I are working on a pictorial DVD of my husband's life. I hope to have it done for Christmas this year as a gift to our children. I'm having a horrendous time going through old photos. I think it's still too soon. It's been two months today.

I was going through boxes and boxes of old photos and cards. One of my best friends gave me a card on our wedding day (yes I keep everything) that read, "TRUE AUTHENTIC LOVE IS INDEED A MIRACLE...NO LONGER ME~NOW YOU ARE US." Now...back to me again. I hate this.

My husband and I always had a relationship that many people were jealous of (Oh...we argued...our marriage was far from perfect~but we were always there for each other). My husband was a miracle in my life. Now I'm asking God for another miracle~help me get through this. I'm going to need a miracle. I've lost 18 pounds since he died. I'm not sleeping, I feel nauseated all the time. I'm trying. I really am.

I've had 5 people (seriously) tell me in the past two months ~ you had 37 wonderful years together ~ be thankful. It wasn't enough.

My husband was a good, honest, funny, hard working, Christian, dependable man. I will never settle for anything less than that in my life.
This picture was taken 20 years ago at a friends wedding. Although Joe's poor body was ravaged with 10 years of heart disease he never lost that twinkle in his eyes.

I pray daily for strength and another of God's miracles to come my way.

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Feb 01, 2011
you will get miracles
by: Lyn Ann

Hi Pat J - - we are in the same club, you and I. My Jim died November 20th. And though his illness I kept praying for a miracle, and although many small miracles happened, none of them came with blaring trumpets, and most were in ways I didn't realise until I looked back and saw the path that we had travelled.

So miracles will come. Tomorrow, next week, next month you will look back and see them. I read recently that God just gives us a light for our feet, not high beams....

Just enough to see one step at a time...

take care, Lyn Ann

Jan 28, 2011
mee too
by: Jackie

Hi Trish, I had 37 years with my husband also. You are right, that's not enough. The last year was particularly hard on all of us. My father and husband were both very ill and died within three weeks of each other. I go through the motions of living like most of us do. I have no fun anymore. I had a friend come up to me at work the other day and say, "I know how you feel, my husband left me after 18 years together." I couldn't believe it. Her husband divorced her, he didn't die. I was infuriated. I told her to get away from me and I walked away. I still can't believe anyone would think divorce and death are even remotely the same. I hope and pray you will get through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you. All of us need to stick together. I would love to see the DVD when it's done. Take care of yourself.

Jan 27, 2011
by: Anonymous

When my husband passed away he wanted us to have a party to celebrate his life. The week after he died my son took every picture we had of his dad and put it on a DVD. We played it on the TV in the living room during the party along with a CD of all of his favorite songs. Everyone in the family got a copy of both. When I am alone on Saturdays in the wonderful house that wonderful man left me, I play them both and cry. My husband died six months ago and I have lost 55 pounds to date. Don't want to eat-don't care about eating. I go to work pay the bills and cry a lot.
I so understand where you are coming from. I can't be much help. I am in the same place.

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