I Need Another Miracle...............
My Handsome Husband
My friend and I are working on a pictorial DVD of my husband's life. I hope to have it done for Christmas this year as a gift to our children. I'm having a horrendous time going through old photos. I think it's still too soon. It's been two months today.
I was going through boxes and boxes of old photos and cards. One of my best friends gave me a card on our wedding day (yes I keep everything) that read, "TRUE AUTHENTIC LOVE IS INDEED A MIRACLE...NO LONGER ME~NOW YOU ARE US." Now...back to me again. I hate this.
My husband and I always had a relationship that many people were jealous of (Oh...we argued...our marriage was far from perfect~but we were always there for each other). My husband was a miracle in my life. Now I'm asking God for another miracle~help me get through this. I'm going to need a miracle. I've lost 18 pounds since he died. I'm not sleeping, I feel nauseated all the time. I'm trying. I really am.
I've had 5 people (seriously) tell me in the past two months ~ you had 37 wonderful years together ~ be thankful. It wasn't enough.
My husband was a good, honest, funny, hard working, Christian, dependable man. I will never settle for anything less than that in my life.
This picture was taken 20 years ago at a friends wedding. Although Joe's poor body was ravaged with 10 years of heart disease he never lost that twinkle in his eyes.
I pray daily for strength and another of God's miracles to come my way.