I need hope!!! Will it ever get better?
by Kassi Perez
This is my handsome brother with his beautiful little girl. This was taken about a year before his accident. I love him and miss him so much
I lost my brother September 29,2011. He wrecked his car on his way to work and my whole family is just not the same. I feel guilt CONSTANTLY! and about everything!! I'm really broken. Things have gotten way better than they were that first month but I'm still struggling. I use to be super outgoing and now I can't even talk to people I know without worrying! I sit at my apartment and never see anybody but my family (occasionally). I still do little things but not much. I've stopped crying every single day but I still feel such a heaviness on my heart that holds me back. I miss my brother so much. I've accepted hes in heaven now but I just cant get over it. I want him back. Now. I don't know if its normal to be pushing myself away from people. I don't know if it'll get better. I just really need an honest description of how life is 5+ years after death of a brother. I'm so hopeless feeling. Please somebody tell me how it is later on...