I Need Opinions, Please
My son died a traumatic death and his body was in the woods for 9 days before he was found. There was a great deal of decomposition and I was not allowed to see him. Almost 4 months have passed and I find myself still not accepting or believing he is gone. It just isn't real to me. I know that is a normal feeling, but I wonder if after 4 months I should be realizing that he really is gone. I now have this overwhelming feeling that I need to see the photographs that were taken by the medical examiner and police when he was found. I also think I just want the chance to decide if I want to see them - as his mother I would be highly insulted and hurt if I couldn't make that decision for myself.
Has anyone else been in this situation? What were your feelings afterwards? I would appreciate any comments on this. Thank you.