I Need to Know Why
by Sara Vargas
I have come to this site now for about a week. Every time I try to write about my son I become too emotional, There are so many things I would like to say about Jonathan, but even now just writing his name is causing me so much pain, anger, and guilt. SO much has happened these last 8 years. I just can't beleive it ended this way. Oh please God take these horrible feelings from me so I can feel normal again. I feel dead inside. Please help me Lord! It's taking too long to be right. I have to raise his 2 daughters now. How can I help them when it is nearly impossible for me to take care of myself.