I Remember Mama

by Robert Fitzgerald Bohannon
(DeKalb, Mississippi)

(Thursday, Sept. 12, 2013): I lost my mom a few weeks ago on Sunday, Aug. 25, 2013. My mom died of a massive heart attack at home with my sister and I around her. Before she died, she said, "Children, I am getting ready to leave you all". In just a few minutes, my mom closed her eyes to eternity and was gone to be with the Lord. It hurt so bad to hear my mom say those words. I am now 44 years old and I have been a "Mama's Boy" all of my life. My mom and I could talk about anything, and I could confide in her as well. I am the third child of four siblings. I remember my mom for being the leader of the bunch, the strong and loving disciplinarian, but most of all, she was a "mighty lioness" if you messed with her children. I have been crying and crying, hearing her voice, and reliving the night she died over and over since she died and it's been really hard for me to sleep. I feel that I can't go on but I know that I must go on. I am trying so hard to deal with this and I know that with prayer and God's help, it will get better but I will never get over it. She left us with so many precious memories from our childhood until this very day. I am not angry at God for taking my mom, but I am just so hurt. I miss her so much. Mom raised her four children to be very close, to love one another, and to always be there for each other. She was a Woman of God who loved to sing, and she could really sing remarkably. I thanked God for giving me such a beautiful spirit that I could call "My Mom". One day, we will all meet again in another place and in another time where we want have to say goodbye anymore, but we will forever be together with other loved ones in that beautiful city called Heaven where no travelers have ever returned. I remember Mama in a happy way. I love you Sarah Catherlean Cole Bohannon (1941-2013)!

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Sep 17, 2013
Time does help
by: Gary

The pain you're feeling is something you go through that is proof of your love. It's like you need to suffer to show how much their passing means so much. It's respect, love, loss and memories that cause the pain. I hurt so bad after my mom's passing I wondered if I would ever be myself again. I lost weight, cried and talked to anybody that would listen. Time eased my pain and I'm sure in time it will yours. For now be kind to yourself and let grief take it's course. You can't nor should you try to rush grief. A person told me something that I embraced. You are made from your mom. She lives on within you. Give yourself a hug because she is you.

Sep 14, 2013
I remember Mama
by: silver

Your mom sounds just like my mom.Daddy was military and gone a lot.Momma raised 6 kids. I am the second oldest. She always took us to church no matter where we were.I remember realizing that I needed GOD in my life when I was about 8 or 9.My mother was the disciplinarian and,like you said,a bear when needed to protect her cubs.She was so strong.She raised a special needs child(he is the oldest) until he was 40 and could no longer help him.He is in a group home now where he is cared so wonderfully because mom searched until she found the best.Unfortunately,I wasn't with my mom when she died of a blood clot to her lungs.I was with my husband on the way to his chemo treatment.My son and a niece and nephew were there.Daddy died in Dec 2009 and she just gave up,sat down,and died 7 months later.She was 81 and had spent 64 yrs with him.I'm so glad you have your siblings to help you.Mine live 2 states away and we don't get to visit except over the phone.GOD be with you and send you strength and peace.I keep all of us in my prayers.

Sep 13, 2013
i remember Mama
by: Anonymous--MI

Robert---I am sad for the loss of your dear Mama--the loss of our loved one is like a knife searing our hearts. But, your faith in God is so wonderful in that you know this is not the end but a new beginning for your Mama--we feel the loss as a closed door for us, one that ends our connection with our loved ones. But--think of it! a new door has been opened for your Mama, my dear husband who died of SCA in NOv 2012--they, who were faithful to our Lord walked through a door that lead to total joy and unimaginable happiness. They are so at peace and in unending light and love given by God. Your faith in God will lead you and all of we who believe that a glorious reunion awaits us in Heaven with first seeing Jesus Christ our Savior and then our dear loved ones. Bless you and Keep the Faith.

Sep 13, 2013
I lost my mom too
by: Delaney

I totally understand what you are going through. I lost my mom on August 31, 2013 to her battle with cancer. There is no words to describe the way you feel, I am 24 years old and they time I need her the most she is gone, but she is no longer in pain and she will be looking down on me and making sure that I will do good. It hurts that she wont be able to see her grandchildren or dance at my wedding or hearing her voice, or eating her famous mac and cheese.

Sep 13, 2013
I Remember Mama
by: Doreen U.K.

Robert I am so sorry for you and your siblings loss of a mother. I loved reading your post of how wonderful a mother she was and of her strong Faith and belief in God which she has passed on to her children.
Robert right now it will feel like raw grief and as if you won't ever recover from your loss. It will take time. We will never forget our mother's and the values they instilled into us. Hold on to this. It is this Faith in God and Love that will get you all through your grief. Don't look too far ahead. The secret is taking just ONE DAY AT A TIME. This is all God gives us. I lost my husband of 44yrs. to cancer 16 months ago. I got through my loss ONE DAY AT A TIME. I don't know how I got through 16 months. BUT I DID. With the help of God. In the early days I took to the couch and watched God TV. and let TV bathe my sorrows and I nurtured myself this way. It helped tremendously. I then took one or two jobs a day and I got my strength back. I still have sorrowful grief days especially on a Saturday the day of the week my husband died. So Saturdays are never a good day for me. They used to be when I had six people around the dinner table. Now there is only ME. We will keep losing people in our lives as God numbers our days. Knowing that you will see your beloved mother again will give you the strength to go on each day. We will all be changed in the twinkling of an eye and the dead in Christ shall be raised first and all we who loved the Lord will be raised together to meet them in the air and we shall live and reign with Jesus, and God FOREVER. No more sin, death, pain, sorrow, murder, evil. This will be destroyed. This world is our temporary home where God is shaping us for the future. Keep holding the Faith and Trust God each day to see you all through your grief. Best wishes.

Sep 13, 2013
Loss of my first born son
by: Leticia Hughes

To I remember mama, I feel your pain. I loss my oldest son last year two wks before he would turn 38 yrs old. He was a single father of 5 kids. He was a wonderful son, father brother grandson and lived his life for his children. He worked very hard to make sure the kids all could be in so many sport activities and involved with there school programs. That morning on Sept 14, and as usual he got up to go to go to work and I would drop his kids to school on my way to work. As I went into work everyone had been talking about how bad traffic was coming into work and there was a bad accident on the fwy. Little did I know my son never made it to work and it was him that was involved. I later got the news that my son died of a heart attack on his way to work on the fwy. . Through the grace of god, he didn't hurt anyone. He died insteadly. I have NEVER experience that pain that hit me so hard in my heart. Losing a child is every parents nightmare. It will be a yr this sat. It took me almost a yr that I could not stop crying for him and needed him back. I was very depressed and cried all the time. I got involved on this web site and also attended a support grieving group, which was very helpful. It takes time. I still have my moments and have dreamed of him twice. If you continue to fall into depression please get into a support group. It has helped me a lot. God bless you. Grieving Mom.

Sep 12, 2013
by: Anonymous

Dear Robert,
I am so sorry to read about your mother, and I understand the overwhelming grief you are experiencing now. At 47 years of age, I was still a "Daddy's Girl". My father died of sudden cardiac arrest in January. I never got to say "goodbye", and he is in my thoughts all the time. His death has completely changed me as a person, and I try to live my life each day in a way that would make him proud. He was a good man. This is a wonderful website, full of supportive and understanding people. We are all on the same journey. I hope you find some comfort here. Take care, Barb

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