I thought things were getting better ~ Not !
Live, Laugh, Love each Day with Passion
I was listening to radio the other day and a song from Sara Evans came on called "A Little Bit Stronger". Now if you've heard the song its about a break up ~ but it's still a lost. There were parts that hit home ~
Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain But I brushed my teeth anyway
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face. I got a little bit stronger
Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt So I turned on the radio,
stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for minute but I changed it
I'm getting a little bit stronger,
just a little bit stronger
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger
Even though its a break up song I found I could relate to "I'm getting a little be stronger" most days. I'm trying to be positive, I guess the baby steps are working to some degree. The sadist thing is I don't want to have things work out.
I want out of this "Billy not being here" thing. It's not sounding right when I write this but it's hard to put words to these feelings. I feel at time like I going crazy. I know we all do. I know I will get stronger, I know I will have another life without Billy and I know I will learn to live with the pain and without my best friend.
I hate it and I'll say it I'm sure many more times, I don't care. I'm selfish now I know but I'm calling it what it is.
LONELY FOR MY LOVE ~ LONELY MISSING HIM ~ LONELY ~
So tonight I pray to see him in my dreams but I know when I wake in the morning I'll be alone once more. I will try to keep in mind what Billy always had written at the bottom of his emails & posted on his Face Book
Live, Laugh, Love each day with Passion
Always, 1 step, 1 breath at a time ~