I want my mom back right now!!!
My mother passed away Feb 23rd 2012, almost 2 months ago. I have looked to greiving sites for help to cope with my loss. I had a very humble and meek mother, never an unkind word to say about anyone. She got so sick for 8 months, hospital, rehab, hospital, and she was so so sick, uti, then those antibiotics gae her c diff, then heart problems, she fell and broke her collar bone, she started getting bed sores that were eating into her muscle and bone and not healing. She got to where she was not eating, and as I looked into it, I learned that at the end of life, your body no longer requires food, everything tastes bad. So we got hospice. For 3 weeks, we watched our mother starve to death. Why there is not a right to die, I do not know, hospice helps yes, and thats all there is. Why the 3 weeks suffering I do not know, it makes me sick. Because she was so kind, it hurts me bad that she suffered for 8 months, she also had a stroke during all of this, and became child like. This is very hard to accept her death, I went thru the denial, didn't seem real,I got mad at people because she died, now I am in the deep grief, I thought last week I was going nuts. I could not stop crying. Then yesterday I met a young man at the park, my sister and I were sitting in the car talking, out of the blue this guy hands us paper work on God, and we told him we were suffering the loss of our mom and had no hope at life anymore. He said we are supposed to live life in hopes of meeting Jesus one day
and go to heaven and that by the grace of God he will forgive us, and all we have to do is ask God for help and he will save us, and that its ok to mourn and cry, and we are not crazy. I think we were supposed to meet this young man, I am still very sad about mom, but I have to say I now have hope..