I want to be sad
In one of the post someone wrote I Want To Be Sad. It is a strange thing to say but I know how they feel. I don't know if sad is the right word but I want the feeling of my husband around me. He died six months ago and I just want to hold on to every precious thing I can. I don't want to move on. I don't want to find a different and new life. I SO BADLY WANT TO HOLD ONTO ANY SCRAP OF MY OLD LIFE THAT I CAN. I come home to an empty house and feel so alone, but it is the house he made for me. Everything in it he did for me. He surrounds me all of the time and I love him so much for that. I miss him so much!