In one of the post someone wrote I Want To Be Sad. It is a strange thing to say but I know how they feel. I don't know if sad is the right word but I want the feeling of my husband around me. He died six months ago and I just want to hold on to every precious thing I can. I don't want to move on. I don't want to find a different and new life. I SO BADLY WANT TO HOLD ONTO ANY SCRAP OF MY OLD LIFE THAT I CAN. I come home to an empty house and feel so alone, but it is the house he made for me. Everything in it he did for me. He surrounds me all of the time and I love him so much for that. I miss him so much!
Oh Trish I do know how you feel. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for understanding how I feel. I have read posts on here from people who have lost their love many years ago and they still feel like we feel. That man will always be with me and yes I cry all of the time for him. And will probably keep on crying because I miss him so
I'M WITH YOU 100% by: TrishJ
Yvonne~I think that may have been me. I'm really tired of people telling me I have to move on. "What are you going to do with the rest of your life?" I'm young by widow standards (56) and I don't want to think about another man ever~ ever again. I mean it. I had the love of my life (for 35 years) and I won't settle for anything less than what I had. I am where I am right now and when I'm ready I'll let everyone around me know. I miss my husband so much. It's only 10 weeks tomorrow. I'm coming out of the total shock phase (just going through the motions) and the reality is hitting me like a ton of bricks. I'll probably be going through this present phase for the next 2 years. It's OK. I know I have to go through it. I like to sit and think about my husband and what I've lost. Leave me alone everyone. I just want to sit and cry right now. I always feel better after a good cry. I don't like feeling sad but that's all I can feel right now. I don't want to pretend I'm happy. I'm coping. I'm surviving the best I can. Hugs and blessings to you Yvonne.
